Saturday, October 4, 2008

the poltics of myspace

so, i know the politics of myspace arent suppose to count for anything, right?
it's not like anyone on myspace is real or anything (social commentary on the not so real sharings people share on myspace.)

but then why is it that knowing you deleted me all together from your myspace is driving me utterly insane.

i mean perhaps your computer got a virus and deleted your myspace.

or perhaps your dog ate your myspace.

or perhaps your girlfriend got so jealous she made you delete your myspace (or perhaps just me.)

well whatever it was, i really dont get.
i mean, i wish we ended on bad terms because then i could at least rationalize your logic, but when we last talk we were good (in fact, we were great.)

but perhaps i was being absolutely delusional about the state of our dynamic lovelady.

all i know is that today, as i was doing my usual rounds of myspace stalking i found your profile again.

not only did i find your profile, it look exactly the way it did last year when it surprisingly disappeared.

the only thing different was that i wasnt your friend anymore.

if you wanted to "break up" with me a simple phone call or an email or even a fucking myspace comment would have sufficed.

i sent you an email days ago.
still no reply.
i get it.
your done.
i'm done.
we are done.

and it doesnt work like that for me.
i just dont sever relationships.

relationships evolve.
even if that evolution means i see and talk less to you.

i guess what hurts the most is that i still love you.
even after a year of not hearing from you.

perhaps i'm being over dramatic.
perhaps i should just friend request you again.

sometimes i want to simply delete my profile and not have to worry about the
fickle world that is myspace.

but myspace is evolving into a language of its own.
its a space where we can all express our moods, thoughts, and desires.

so maybe i just need to send you a friend request.



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